NEw thoughts on where i am

So after returning from a nice visit at home ive come back to chicago with alot on my mind and on my plate. i need to figure out what to do to finish school which is harder than it seems. it takes alot to decide the future so thats rough. its all about whats the best, whats reasonable and will fit within my plans for next year. i love my job. ive already applied early to come back next year to have my own team at a school, hopefully the one im at already but wherever im needed works for me too. i think its going to be such a great experience for me becasue everything that im learning so far and have yet to learn is only going to prepare me for wbhatever i do down the road. my goals as of today are: to do one more year while doing the whole grad school thing or going to grad school after i finish up next year; find a job within heartland alliance or another non proft that deals with immigration; maybe getting into law somehow. big hopes, big dreams but if i claim it, its mine. so tomorrow i may want to run off and join the circus. i mean it was in town at the united center so i had my chance haha.

i also wish i could be happy in all regards of my life for once. i realized that everything im thought was semi perfect is not. its hard work to be happpy within relationships whether that be in friendships or dating someone and even within you family.its been a very eye opening experience within all of those relationships an i have found that there are alot of things im not happy with. alot of things im not happy with withing myself that i need to figure out. it sucks but hey thats all about growing. you cannot be a healthy develping person if you dont realize things that need to change around you and within you.l im at that phase but i kind of wish i werent. makes me miss when i didnt have to worry about alot of things and when my only concern was studying for a test and running fast in a race. everything else was less important to me. now i guess i have to be a grown up and face....reality. ew